I strive to be true to myself and my own convictions, values, and ideals. This has resulted in me being somewhat on the fringe, but I have learned to live with that. After having a very small group of close friends in high school, and an even smaller group in college, I learned that quality is better than quantity. Now, it is no different. My friends, who know me well, accept me for who I am. For others, I can be an asset to know or alternatively, seen as an oddity, rigid, stubborn or any other number of more derogatory descriptors.
Over my lifetime, I have learned to accept myself and all that I am. Both good and bad. I am emotional, loyal, kind, stubborn, intelligent, insightful, and intense. Until the last few months, I have never been dramatic, diva-ish, or explosive. Sadly, I have been all of those lately. And, I do not know exactly why, but could make some educated guesses.
I remember EVERYTHING! Every nuance, every direction, every comment, every compliment, every commitment, every criticism, every overture, everything – I remember. I wish I didn’t. Often, I remember things that other people do not even if it something the other person said or did. This causes problems for me, as I take them at their word. And, if their word is not even remembered by them, how can it be a directive for me? It cannot.
I know myself well. I know I am not the easiest person to be around. But, I also know what I can do, contribute, and develop, given the chance. I ask no more than to be treated with respect. If I have your respect, if I feel that I am valued, I will do everything possible to maintain both my high standards and yours.
The following quotes gave me some comfort tonight when I needed it. They tell me that I should continue to remain true to myself. And, I am okay with that. So are the others who love me.
“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”
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“Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.”
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“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind.”
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“No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.”
― This is My Story
The Apples in My Orchard 
The Emerson quote is one of my favorites. I am always trying to reflect on who I am and get better, but I don’t want to become someone who is untrue. It can be hard to be yourself. It really can. Hang in there.
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It is hard! But, worth hanging on to who you are! Thanks for visiting!
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