I strive to be true to myself and my own convictions, values, and ideals. This has resulted in me being somewhat on the fringe, but I have learned to live with that. After having a very small group of close friends in high school, and an even smaller group in college, I learned that quality is better than quantity. Now, it is no different. My friends, who know me well, accept me for who I am. For others, I can be an asset to know or alternatively, seen as an oddity, rigid, stubborn or any other number of more derogatory descriptors.
Over my lifetime, I have learned to accept myself and all that I am. Both good and bad. I am emotional, loyal, kind, stubborn, intelligent, insightful, and intense. Until the last few months, I have never been dramatic, diva-ish, or explosive. Sadly, I have been all of those lately. And, I do not know exactly why, but could make some educated guesses.
I remember EVERYTHING! Every nuance, every direction, every comment, every compliment, every commitment, every criticism, every overture, everything – I remember. I wish I didn’t. Often, I remember things that other people do not even if it something the other person said or did. This causes problems for me, as I take them at their word. And, if their word is not even remembered by them, how can it be a directive for me? It cannot.
I know myself well. I know I am not the easiest person to be around. But, I also know what I can do, contribute, and develop, given the chance. I ask no more than to be treated with respect. If I have your respect, if I feel that I am valued, I will do everything possible to maintain both my high standards and yours.
The following quotes gave me some comfort tonight when I needed it. They tell me that I should continue to remain true to myself. And, I am okay with that. So are the others who love me.
“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”
“Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.”
“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind.”
“No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.”