This two-week break (no school – online or otherwise) has caused a great loss of motivation for me. No longer up at 6:30, I blame this on insomnia creeping back into the house. The two hours between one and three a.m., as I lay wide awake in my bed, grateful to be safe in a warm, quiet house, pass slowly. I ruminate like a cow chewing her cud about the many things that I cannot control or change. But, as morning arrives, I finally sleep contentedly between the blankets. My husband’s been up for three hours, fed and walked the dog, and checked the news for the day.
I feel like a slug. Usually, I am a highly motivated, self-directed person. I am very goal-oriented and have been known to work tirelessly to reach my goals. Right now, I’m not doing that. Unless…..
Unless my goals have changed? Could it be?!
The answer is probably not. I know this is temporary. I just feel blah.
I think the lack of motivation is brought about by a number of factors. But, still, it got me thinking. Does a lack of routine destroy motivation? Or, can it restore it? What is your take on this?
Like most schools, our district will be coming off Easter break after the holiday on Sunday. Our longer than usual one week break turned into two when the teachers were given a week to get ready for term four. I am not arguing about this decision. I know what it takes to change gears from in-person instruction to a virtual class. I know it hs not been easy. And, I’m sure the teachers needed the time and appreciated it. But, I think just as students were getting used to an online model, we stopped for this break. It is just my opinion but I think the momentum for some has been lost.
I want to be clear. I am not talking about my own student but more about how unmotivated I personally feel and how I can see others might possibly feel unmotivated too. So, if you are feeling unmotivated, I understand; I truly do.
I think I will just end this post here. It’s been a rough day. To top it off, I realized that my brain must work differently than most other people, including some friends and some family. I also realized there is nothing I can do about that. Oh, well.
The sun is out. Tomorrow is another day. And, maybe my motivation will return soon.